I put people that I respect up on the weirdest pedestals sometimes. I think of them as almost not being human. I assume too much about the way a person, that I don’t really understand, would do something or think about something. It’s like I’ve set up imaginary principles to live by, that my heroes “probably do”. And when I see a random stroke of humanity from one of these people, it puts those imaginary principles into perspective. Like a house of cards. They all the sudden seem meaningless. That doesn’t stop me from doing it though. Well, there it is.

Finding a job is hard. Especially when your mind talks you out of doing anything that would be good for you. In the long run, anyway. It’s better to just keep your head down and stay comfortably numb, right? Keeping afloat doing a bullshit job for a couple hours a week. Getting into a rut is a scary thing. The only thing thing that keeps me hopeful is that I’m aware of it. There’s so much I want to do and I’m running out of time.

My first Tumblr post.